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[ August 20th, 2008 | 12:21am ] |
making a new journal because i am compeltely and utterly SICK. of this one.
big change. new journal.
peace.
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[ March 5th, 2008 | 3:24pm ] |
I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED!
WILKES UNIVERSITY.
FIRST YES I'VE GOTTEN!
YAY!!!!!!!
YAYY!!!
I'M NOT GOING TO OCCC!
YAYYYYY
I REALLY DONT SUCK! YES!!!!
HAPPIEST GIRL EVER.
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[ April 26th, 2007 | 10:18pm ] |
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<33!!!!!!PROM IS TOMORROW!!!!!<33
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[ March 27th, 2007 | 7:28pm ] |
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tis the day of my birthday!
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[ January 5th, 2007 | 1:23pm ] |
i just read your livejournal and it inspired me to write in my own
it just happend on my doorstep.
she embraced me with such shame and weakness.
ashamed of what she has become and who is she now.
she says she needs people like us to help her.
well we've been here but she pushed us all away.
theres absolutly no way i can trust her, maybe never more.
we will all stumble upon a road which leads to heartbreak and disappointment to others..
..but this, is even beyond that.
i'm still here. i didn't care because if it's not right infront of you, you can push it away
..and then i couldn't. i started to care when she touched me. that hug was a hug for help.
or so i'd think. as the day came it wasn't. she's still not fully there yet. and it's getting to late
before she's literaly there it'll just get worse. and i won't be there if it gets worse.
i won't.
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[ December 21st, 2006 | 11:12pm ] |
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i really love christmas. i love giving. and i won't lie, i love recieveing.
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[ November 27th, 2006 | 10:03pm ] |
i wish i was the one getting flowers for a change..
hum
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[ October 4th, 2006 | 3:12pm ] |
ok so i haven't updated in AGES.. in a nutshell things are going well i guess.. don't really want to get into things at this moment.. i just went up and visited my cousin Nichole in VT.. got shitfaced. had the best time.. stole a vibrating penis lighter who i gave to someone speical hahaha i'm in a really good mood lately.. idk why.
ill update more later
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[ August 6th, 2006 | 7:16pm ] |
i have lots to update. not really in the mood to.. im starving.. i'm going to see Mae & the Spill Canvas with Car on the 14th! (very excited) i've been working a lot.. i've been hanging out with kaylie and lauren and anthony a lot lately.. i miss some others imperticular though (icantspell) yesterday was laurens bday party. i had a freakin blast. i love love love Rachie.. (i'll never end up calling you that to your face lol its bizzare but i like it.. love mandy pandy) and we ran down the streets of scotchtown to catch the icecream man, we talked shit about people, we blew noise makers, we listened to ipods, we ate mad candy in chinese boxes (so fuckin cute *strikeout* i mean adorable) haha then i slept over her house and i loved iit. like i love her family soo much.. it was her moms birthday and they were like opening presents and stuff and like i didnt even feel uncomfortable! and i got Lauren a build a bear (i pimped it out head to toe!) and red ballet flats.. we opened presents, painted our nails, listened to music, washed my face haha, started to watch tv.. passed out.. woeku p and ate breakfast with the other sec. of the link family haha i<3it!
i miss you
ill update more after
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[ July 28th, 2006 | 5:36pm ] |
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i love working at BABW!!!!yayyy lol i need to tan.. i've drank a lot recently. and i love alcohol. and i love my friends.. i love my friends that i can have a actual/deep convo with.. don't even let me get into this.. carly and i bonded about that last night lol
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[ June 28th, 2006 | 11:01pm ] |
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who can play guitar that wants to help out?
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[ May 13th, 2006 | 12:32am ] |
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uh. im so over this.
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[ February 4th, 2006 | 11:18pm ] |
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i hate how when im finally free and doing nothing for 3 weekends in a fuckin row i dont do ANYTHING besides hangout once with trish.. and this friday im going to a party.. wtf is that about. i cant make any DEFINATE plans still but basically i can. eh whatever im in a really good mood though
i went and visited my dad today after his surgery.. he lost a lot of hearing in the ear they operated on.. and then i went and fixed my braclet then i went to my aunts in way way way up in connecticut then we got on the highway and were coming home and i had to pee so we turned around and went down near my gradmas at like 9 lol then stayed there for an hour now im home at like 11ish
Rachel's birthday is Monday.. and im happy/excited! i doubt i can get out to get you anything right at this moment so i love you <3<3
couldnt get my tooth taken out because the surgents wife went into labor.. so im havin it done this friday. i wanna do something for my birthday:-D yay! lol
im done.
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[ February 1st, 2006 | 9:57pm ] |
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BRACES ARE COMING OFF OFFICALLY MARCH 2ND!!!!! HALLEUJUIAH!
thank fucking god.
lol
so that happend and maxie went as Toto.. who knows how that will go. and idk blahhh ill update more later
why mus'nt anyone comment?
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[ January 31st, 2006 | 7:34pm ] |
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iu fucking flipped shit on Pat Molley today.i hate that boy. i told him to shut up because hes annoying and loud and wouldn't shut up then i yelled at him so he yelled back and it was just a fight to the death. i wanted to fucking punch him
my day wasn't good in general.. Brittani Fonseca auditioned for Ms. Saigon.. and like i was going to! and i didnt because of a lot of reasons i dont wanna go into and im just p-oed that shes gunna have a shot at something i didnt idk whatever
my grandpas super sick. i went to Horton today and visited him.. i think im going to volunteer at the hospital. my grandmother asked me to sing at the funeral when he passes away. So i decided to sing Amazing Grace its going to be SOOOO hard though.. and like idk im not taking this whole thing easily AT ALL
midterms are over atleast i didnt do so well on science and math..
i have a braces appiontment tomorrow this may be one of the last:-)
my dogs "auditioning" for Toto tomorrow lmao idk how well that will go there nor do i care
i hung out with trish this weekend so that was cool
my dads having surgery friday.. keeping my fingers crossed
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Name 10 things that bring you a moment of joy, and tag 5 friends to do the same.
1. family
2. friends
3. singing
4. finsihing a book
5. laughing
6. going on vacation
7. playing games with my sissy lol
8. getting compliments
9. when my grandma makes me stuuf like clothes
10.thinking of being truely loved
im tagging no one, do the survey if you want to, if not dont. (i agree with Dianna)
[X] I am really ticklish
[X] I’m afraid of the dark
[x] I’m afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[] I am homosexual.
[X] I believe in true love.
[] I’ve run away from home.
[] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I’m sad (sometimes)
[] I’ve stayed out all night.
[X] I open up to others easily.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world
[] I watch the news
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[xXXX] I love Disney movies.
[xxxxxxxx] I am a sucker for pretty eyes.
[] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I curse once in a while
[] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[x] I’ve slipped and fell in public.
[] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation.
[] I love Spam.
[] I cook well.
[x] I have worn pajamas to class
[] I have owned something from Carhartt.
[] I have a job
[x] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours
[] I love Dr. Phil
[x] I like someone
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I have tried alcohol.
[] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[] I loved Lord of the Flies
[x] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[] I can’t swallow pills.
[] I have a few scars. (emontial AND physical for me)
[] I’ve been out of this country
[] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room
[X] I love chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I am not comfortable with being me
[x] I play computer games when I’m bored
[] Gotten lost in the city.
[] Seen a shooting star
[] Had a serious surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[] Have kissed a stranger.
[x] Hugged a stranger
[] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex
[idk if jasmine brown counts???] Been in a fist fight
[xtechincally.. but no cuffs] Been arrested.
[] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[] Made out in an elevator.
[x] Swore at your parents
[] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[] Been skydiving
[] Been bungee jumping.
[x] Gotten stitches.
[] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone.
[] Been to Niagara Falls.
[] Gotten the chicken pox twice
[] Crashed into a car
[] been to Africa.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[x] Shoplifted
[] Been fired.
[XxxxxX] Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[not yett hopefully for la birthday] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[] Been to Europe.
[] Slept with a co-worker
[] Been married.
[] Gotten divorced.
[] Saw someone/something dying
[x] Driven over 1000 miles in one day
[] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane
[X] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar.
[] Eaten sushi
[] Been snowboarding
[] Been skiing
[x] Been ice skating
[X] Cried in public (just last night)
[] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.
[X] Thought of someone almost 24/7
[X] Hated the world.
[] Made out with someone in the last week
[] Been In love
[] Ever thought you were in love
[] Been with a gf/bf for more than a month
[x] Ran in the rain for fun
[x] Cried over somebody
eh that wasnt an exciting survey. but maybe its because my life just isn't that exciting??
my mind always changes with what i wanna do. at this moment i just want to boy cott the whole music thing. im done. im worn out.. (thats what one side of me thinks)
the other says hell no your not! if you put ur mind to it you will succedd! you can do it! don't let these situations/other bring you down
the trouble is..
..i don't know who to believe.
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[ January 22nd, 2006 | 7:37pm ] |
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i havent updated in a while.. who knows how long this entry will be cause i have a lot to say
made the musical. im a munchkin/poppy/beautican... happy but like idk i cant wait to get out of high school where theres NO favoritism and just pure talent. like i can just give it my all and be appreitcated..
speaking of which.. i had my recital today.. not to sound conceited AT ALL honestly! but like omg i sounded AMAZING today. like i sang Can't help lovin dat man and like i just wanna sing it right now.. i gave it my all and i kicked ass. it just like.. made me realize that i LOVE what im doing.. not like it oh whatever. i absolutly LOVE the feeling for being on stage, all eyes on me, being appreicated for my talent and shocking ppl who hear me. i LOVE it. theres this song Nothing from a Chorus Line and i want to learn it so bad cause its just so.. like idk. the lyrics are amazing. and Robin started crying at the end and so did i and it was just awesome. Kay Missy and Katie came.. i was really happy they came! Robin's thinking of doing a Diva's Concert.. with like me and 9 other girls.. so i was really happy about that!!! and idk i love it..
Nothing (Highlights from the song)
And I said..."Nothing,
I'm feeling nothing,"
And he says "Nothing
Could get a girl transferred."
And I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
To see what I had inside.
Yes, I dug right down to the bottom of my soul
And I tried, I tried.
Six months later I heard that Karp had died.
And I dug right down to the bottom of my soul...
And cried.
'Cause I felt... nothing.
midterms are tomorrow unfortunatly.. and im not ready but heres my additude right now... FUCK IT. its a fucking midterm not a final
Walt is very sick. i cried today solely for him. he is on hostel bed? or something like that? where a nurse is with him.. and he cant get up to go to the bathroom so he just goes in the bed.. disgusting but so depressing. it's my grandpa for gods sake. and its Mark's dad.. like i've only known him since i was 6.. but at the same time i've known him SINCE i was six and hes more of a grandpa then my dad's dad. and hes even talking to his DEAD mother. its just sad. so basically i'll probably get pulled from school this week if he like dies when i have a midterm. right now though it may be whats best for him though because hes drugged but he cant go on living life like this much longer.
i went driving this weekend!!!! it was really fun.. i tried parking and i was doing PERFECT then i thought i was pushing the break and i pressed the gas hard and went up a hill lmao
idk im excited for my birthday but i know im not getting a car. and i doubt im getting my permit.. cause whats the point?! theres no point. and mom doesnt know what to get me but w/e we'll figure something out. if u read to down here good job! lol leave ur imput!
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friday night = nothing
satruday= hung out with Rachel for la first time!!! i love that girl.. (look on her lj for pics) she did my makeup, we watched a movie, etc.. and SHE PIERCED MY EAR IN THE MIDDLE OF MY LEFT EAR I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT lol
sunday- hung out with Kaykay omg so much fun! starbursts! we saw Tristan and Isolde which was pretty good.. and i got caught up on my ghetto lmao idk i had a good weekend
monday- went to my Recital rehersal from 10-4 which was AMAZING and i can't wait!!! then i had piano lessons
im really REALLY nervous for midterms.. like to the max.. this sucks fucking ass
my aunt Rosemary died... R.I.P. i didn't really know her but still it sucks that she died.. i also think my grandpa Walt (pats hubby) is going to die within the month.. my mom and mark do technically but i agree its pretty sad
i miss a few certain ppl.. where've ya been?!
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so im really hoping i get into the musical. even though its not my favorite musical hey, it'll still be fun. idk.. im not as close to the ppl i really want to be close to. like idk its highschool. its not just me, ppl drift. idk i can't even talk about the stuff i want on this journal because i don't feel comfortable. and that my friends is a problem. i hate getting my period and then teachers telling me i cant go to the bathroom. if they do it tomorrow i will be like GUESS FUCKING WHAT, I HAVE MY PERIOD LET ME BE idk i just miss how things used to be. my voice is back to normal and im on O.D. medicine.. its ridiculous.. my cousin is going back to Vermont saturday.. im going to miss that girl. i do every time i hate when ppl take myspace pictures that are like OBSESSED and always taking them. it buim not going to bash the whole world right now because
"Frankly My Dear, I don't give a damn" who said that quote?
does anyone know? geesh its a good important one.
im thinkin that i wanna watch cinderella right now
my friend Louis drives me insane. love the kid but he drives me crazy.. lets go shopping " "
ugh
i feel like im a bitch lately but ya know what.. its the truth
whatever im happy now:-) im watching Cinderella
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[ December 31st, 2005 | 10:55am ] |
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Are you ready for 2006? I am. Starting off my new year with Trish..
This year i've gone threw so much.. from getting caught stealing and going to court, from my birthday party which i loved, from june to when we took regents and started to party for the summer and the end of 9th grade, to ryan o'shea's party which i absolutly loved, to going to Wildwood with kaylie and going to a hotel party and almost/wanting to go all the way with partically a stranger, to all the times i smoked and got soo soo high and drank and got soo fucking wasted, to when my mom got all her surgerys done, to when kristin and i stopped being super tight and hanging out a lot. of course i still love love lvoe that girl it's just never been like how it is now since 2nd grade, to pool hopping and such, to the beginning of a new school year, to me realizing i really am into music and want to pursue it as a career, to realizing that i've been getting sick to often, to realizing i secretly deep down do like Mike and just want to makeout with him sometimes! lol sometimes he is the SWEETEST person but sometimes hes a dick and i know i deserve better but im kinda settling, i really want a boyfriend. ppl say don't just talk about it it'll come randomly but i haven't had one in YEARS. literally. like i made out with a few ppl these year but i can count them on my hand and it isn't a lot, i want to break out of my shell and get wilder for the new year, i wanna live life like i was going to die tomorrow, i want to stop being sick all the time, i want to get in the msuical, i need to lose weight cause my aunt is getting married in november, i want to love myself. truely LOVE myself, im sure no ones reading it but this is all where it gets good, i want to reconqinze who my true friends and love life with them, i need to stop living vi-car-i-guy-ous-ly through them and have fun exciting sotries of my own, i want my sister to love me and stop saying she hates me whenever i say like no i dont wanna play or i shun her, i want to love somebody. not a baby or anything but i want love in my life,i want to pass this year with good grades despite the musical, i want to make new/more friends with ppl in the musical if i get in, i want to stand out and be myself. i don't want to just be another girl walking down the hallway,
This year was good... i've lived it and i've learned from it. continue to get piss ass drunk and high if i want. live this year up. find love. don't get caught stealing. be careful with my virginity because its a scared thing. love myself.
2006 here we come
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[ December 30th, 2005 | 9:33am ] |
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Nothing's really new since i'm sick and not gettting better. i went to the Palisades with Robin yesterday and bought nice sweatpants and stuff and had fun but when i got home i felt like shit and threw up. so yea mom wouldn't let me go to Kaylies UGH also let me just say..
How many of you have had sex?
Everyone BASICALLY but me. i'm aggravated and it's not just cause everyone else has had it AT ALL cause thats just a tiny factor. but i really want to have it. but first i want to have a boyfriend to have it with i don't wanna just get drunk at a party and do it or anything like that. *i admire carly in this situation* i just UGH and like idk.
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[ December 27th, 2005 | 5:56pm ] |
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and um.. my iPod is working correctly now and i have strep throat AGAIN they are sending me to the ENT because i've had it 4 times in the last 4 months. mom thinks i need my tonsils out... GREAT!
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[ December 25th, 2005 | 10:06pm ] |
I FUCKING LOVE CHRISTMAS
i got a iPod from my grandparents that i love so dearly and i have a problem.. so i got a video iPod and i have napster and have a lot of songs.. but i need iTunes for my iPod so i downloaded that then when i tryed to transfer my songs to iTunes from napter it said that they can only convert unprotective WMA songs.. and it won't let me load any songs.. can you help me?!
dad-new nice digital camera, 12X zoom,5.1 mega pixels
mom- jewerly from zales and a lot of stuff
idk i got a lot highlights : dooney and bourke purse,camera,jewerly,ipod,karaoke machine and much more
Merry Christmas i love love love christmas
dooney and bourke purse
camera
ipod
zales jewels
karaoke machine
heating pad
tutti dolci tiriammiso lipgloss and lotion
straighten
jewerly kit
betty boop acc.
face stuff
mirrors
dumb little bath stuff
head things
2 other purses
cellphone jewels and acc
robe
pajamas
shirt, and matching hat
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[ December 19th, 2005 | 6:09pm ] |
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CHRISTMAS IS COMING UP..im so excited
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[ December 15th, 2005 | 5:09pm ] |
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You Are Beautiful...
Deciving?? Yes.. Nice?? Very
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